Dealing with life today, looking back and seeing my life as it was yesterday.  All the things that went wrong in my life, makes me wonder if tomorrow will be the same.  I look at my self in the mirror today and I feel lonely at times but not as much today.  I know in the hardest parts of my life is moving on.  I was told to have faith and things will come out fine.  I was stupid in so many ways, thinking that he really cared.  I believe in his words, I believed all feelings were true.  It hurts me so bad; I felt life meant nothing at all.  I cried myself to sleep, not wanting to be in this world at all.  Did you wonder why they don’t love you?  And not even show they cared?  Asking yourself, what did I do so wrong why am I lonely when they are there?

Looking at my life, seeing how it’s been.  I have cried, hurt, and felt my heart skipping a beat.  These are feelings that I had when you decided to leave me.  Now it is my turn to move on and find my way out.  I always made sure you had everything in life and I am the only one that has to sacrifice.   Also, making sure you had food before I could.  I traded my hopes and dreams only for yours to come true.  I gave it all I had in me, to make you feel happier than anyone could.  But then again it was NEVER enough!  I don’t know how to heal and move on and not expect my future relationships to be like the one I had.   But I have never stopped believing true love is out there.  I know one-day my loneliness will fade away.  I will never look back at those sad moments in my life and think that life will always be the same.  I know what it takes to start a new life all over again and I AM READY TO MOVE ON!

Well, let talk about my… Thanksgivings:

Wednesday: I left work early and I went over to Trina’s place for dinner with all of her friends.  They stay up all night playing cards!   I had such a great time!

Thursday: At 10am we all went to eat at Nam Phuong and then drove to my mom’s place afterward.

Friday:  I woke up at 6:30am to go to BLACK Friday shopping and brought a lot of Christmas presents for my nieces and nephews.   At 2:30pm I drove back to NJ for a Dinner Party at Rose’s place.  I met her fiancée and her brother.   After dinner, we end up playing “Tien Len” (Vietnamese 13 cards).  Gosh, I have a lot of fun.

Saturday:  I was cooking for my family “ the traditional thanksgiving dinner”.  Then we end up hitting the mall and then afterward we played poker all night long!

Sunday:  I went to dinner again!  Gosh, this year I ate Soooooo much FOODs.  I love it!